January 23, 2011



It's late at night when the tears secretly fall or when I'm alone....Tonight my mind remembers that little boy I babysat as a toddler...playing peek-a-boo and patty cake...hugs and kisses....Oh, how I wish we could go back in time....just one month ago....when life made sense....because it doesn't make any sense now....We try to wrap our minds around all of this and we can't....I spent many times this week just crying at my sewing machine thinking of him because my mind would wonder....just me alone with my thoughts and memories of him..........................

32 comments:

Robin said...

Feeling some of your pain...I'll be praying for you and the little guy's parents for peace and comfort...
God love ya !!
Robin

Dana~HomespunTreasures said...

Jen it just breaks my heart that you and your family is going through all this pain.I'm still praying God will comfort you each day. Please let me know if you need anything at all.

Blessings,
Dana

Trish-Ladybug said...

Oh Jen...Thoughts and prayers for
you and the family,that the Lord
will comfort your broken hearts
We are all here for you let us
know if you need anything at all.
Blessings,
Trish.

Lucy said...

You are in my thoughts Jen.

Susannah said...

Jenn...Your thoughts and memories are welcomed anytime you wish. I know it is hard to feel better. It will be awhile. I was wondering how you Brother and sister in law are doing, and your Mom and Dad. I pray for your family every night. This has been a terrible shock. Try to take each day at a time. Remember.... the Lord is carrying you right now.

Sincere good wishes,
Susannah

connie said...

It doesn't get much easier when you lose your child.I have learned that time DOES NOT heal all wounds..I wish I had the magic words to ease your pain..but there aren't any..

Lorna/Live Oak Primitive Peddler said...

Hi Jen, you and your family are still in my prayers.
Blessings,
Lorna

Kathy (woolfind) said...

Praying for you today Jennifer. May God hold on to you tightly today as you sit and remember. Know that you are comforted by your friends here. sending you big hugs!

Farm Field Primitives said...

Keeping you in my prayers. Your tears are helping you heal. God Bless you all.
~Melissa~

Dora said...

Thoughts and prayers to you and your family.

Deppen homestead 1862 said...

Jen,

May you find the peace through the lord let him guide you at this difficult time...
thoughts & prayer for you
Teresa

Falling Leaf Woodworkers and Primitives said...

I have kept you and your family in my thoughts and prayers everyday. I am glad you have this blog to share your thoughts, it is good to get them out,Please know your blog friends are always here to listen and offer comfort to you.
Here is a Hug from Maine
Sabrina

Wendy @ Ravenwood Whimzies said...

No mere words can help ease your loss, but may the memories you hold dear and the prayers of those near and far help your family to heal.

Blessings

Wendy/TheCozyYellowHouse said...

I am praying for God's peace to surround you and your family, I pray you will feel His loving comfort. ~hugs~

basketsbyrose said...

Words can not take the pain away. All I can do is send hugs and prayers to you and your family!

Loafer Mountain Primitives said...

Jen,
It' so hard to make sense of these types of things. Death in itself is hard but to loose such a young man is truely devistating. I wish there were words to be said that would soothe your tattered soul. Just know that as you grieve, we'll all be here to listen and do our best to lift you up and soothe you the best we can.
I'll continue to pray for you and your family as well as be here to listen when you need to voice your thoughts......
Hugs and prayers,
Tisha

Rugs and Pugs said...

Jen ~
May you find peace at this difficult time. Prayers and hugs coming your way.
Lauren

Penny said...

Jenn -- Continued prayers for you and your family....that you may find comfort and peace in the days ahead.

Uptown Antiques said...

{{{Jennifer}}} Just read everything that happened and my heart just breaks for you and your family. You will definitely be in my thoughts and prayers. My Grandmother passed away 10 years ago and I still miss her and sometimes cry when I think of her.

xo

Kim

Sandy said...

My thoughts are with you and your family. I can't imagine what you and your family are going through but I hope some day you all will find peace.

Shelley said...

I know your pain as I lost my little nephew almost 16 years ago....such a long time ago but,the memory is there...I pray your pain will grow easier each day...each year...God will bring comfort through the presence of his Holy Spirit. I still question why at times but,the answer is his and I won't know what that answer may be until I stand before him in his Kingdom. I must believe he knows best and although it makes no sense to me...somehow it fits into his plan...hope these words I have shared has brought you some kind of comfort...may God give you peace and comfort...to all....Shelley

Never So Simple said...

Jen,

You are in my thoughts and prayers. Sadly I know your pain and I feel the same way life doesn't make any sense to me anymore. I just go through the daily motions and don't remember one day from the next.

Donna

MARY PERNULA said...

I am so sorry for your loss, I hope for peace and comfort for you and his family. HUGS MARY

Primsue said...

Jen, my heart just breaks for you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss. I am praying that you will be surrounded by God's comfort and peace.

Blessings,
Sue

Alicia said...

Jenn,

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family everyday. I am grieving with you and wish that I was near so I could bring comfort with a hug. Instead, I will send a hug via this message to let you know how much I care.

In Hebrews 13:5, it says "I will never fail you or forsake you." Please know that Christ our Savior is holding you within his arms and bringing you peace.

Blessings,
Alicia

Karen/My Colonial Home said...

Oh Jen I feel so bad for you and your family....this has to be the toughest loss to endure. We understand when a parent ages and it's the natural course of life....but not this.

Thank God for the wonderful memories, and Jen, hang on to them as I know you will and it will be a blessing and a joy as time goes on rather than making a sadness in your heart.

Hugs, karen

LeeHillPrimitives said...

Hi Jen, I am sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my prayers.I hope God will comfort you soon.

Mel said...

Hugs to you and your family Jen, it is difficult when God takes a child.

Prayers are with you and your family, may God heal your broken hearts.

Blessings,
Mel

Tweedles! said...

Thinking of you and your family during this time. Know that in some way some good will come from this - maybe another young life will be saved by someone who learned a lesson from what happened. Take care, Tweedles

quiltsbycheri said...

i understand the sadness that makes those tears fall....and i know a day will come for all that is not filled with tears, fond memories still, but not so many tears....it will come and the ache will be less....keep strong for those that need your strenght, that will keep you going

•♦•The Olde Weeping Cedar •♦• said...

I know those tears, Jen. I lost my two little nieces (5 years ago) Hannah & Emma, Hannah was also my God daughter...my heart is still full of sadness
--it feels like BOTH, a lifetime ago and just yesterday since they went to heaven--
I still have "triggers" that set the tears in motion.
Bearing the loss/sadness does get easier with time...but it never 'goes away'...at least for me, five years later....


((hugs))
I'm keepin you in my prayers♥

Denise's Kountry Patch said...

I think when we lose any family member it is hard, but when it is an innocent child, it is a hurt and loss that no one can ever forget or put behind them. I love your blog, and your changes...and your heart will heal in time, but your tears will always be there...healing prayers from my house to yours...hugs...